I just past 11/11/11,

I mean it kind of special date since everyone is posting about it everywhere and anywhere.

We cannot deny that things are getting more complicated as we grow up. As times goes by we tend to learn the thing that use to be covered away from us by the elder generation, as times goes by our responsibilities add on greatly and as times goes by we learn the art of acting and the cruel of the human world.

It is neither good nor bad points but it does affect everyone in some way. As for me im kind of a loser, I cannot find myself having enough confidence to be convinced that I can pull through all these “waves” eventually. Not seeing any improvement, not getting anywhere and being indecisive makes me feel even worse. My faith and passion are disappearing slowly, driving me to a corner hoping that no one can ever find me.

Perhaps, I need to have some good rest to get myself re-charge and move on again.

SLEEP!

Point taken, lesson learnt.

It is common for a person to doubt his or her ability of working?

It kind of routine for me in everywhere and everything im doing.

hate myself for being so sensitive and emotional at time. how people think of me how people talk of me, i do mind alot from it.

At time im totally lost when i hav no idea what shld i do, how can i contd and what i want. at time when i really need a person to pull me up yet these has never be happening in my life. im envy of those ppl how always able to find the gui ren helping them and ensuring they are walking straight and properly. and i was always in the down deep hole where everyone has ignored.

i told myself to be strong and happy so that my days will be better everyday yet till the end i found myself exhausted by all these act. ha but who the damn h*ll will care abt wat im going through?

the ppl i always tot that i can befriend with letting them step into my life and treat them as my close friend yet one by one disappoint me and making me feel like some idiot they jus need to go through. i take all my friendship seriously but this always are the culprit letting my heart ached like h*ll.

at time i seriouly felt that im a dumb and useless person jus another extra to the society

utterly disappointed.

what will you all do if all along there a grp of ppl saying that they are ur friends, asking u out to play dinner and celebrate their bday yet they never ever make an effort for ur? anyone understand what im talking abt?

1st year we are busy due to exam etc etc thus we unable to celebrate ur bday, 2nd year same reason and 3rd year do u all still wanna me to turn blind and deaf about this? words are also nice from the mouth, ya at least we will still giv bday card and wishes to that person if we are unable to make it for the bday. really? so are you telling me im recieved my 3rd invisible bday card?

is not abt the attention i wanted to get from this grp of friends is jus that their words are always unable to tally with they action, seem like me doesnt even exist in their world. im jus some extra helping them to chip their bday present making they grp bigger.

i never tot that i will post thing like this at here but wat i saw facebook cny gathering they dun even invite u but post it as a non private event... wat will any of u all feel if u are me?

doubt u all even care abt my feeling. the most u all will jus say that im the one walking off from the grp. but any of u all think of why?

friends... so this is the friendship i recieved from u all.

it always so hurtful staying wif u all.

So a NEW post in a NEW year!!!

Thought of my new year resolution...

1) Studies get well hopefully 1st class h. >.<

2) Get my body back to shape... cant stand anymore yet have no determination so i shall start here.

3) Do well for my job

Yup that my current aim for 2011. hope i can achieve it. =)

Gonna change my blog skin too ^^

soon.... =X

Oh well few more hour and im no longer 21st, 21st really let me realise what's going on ard you and the world you leaving, of course more responsibilities helps too, learnt and experience lots of new thing.. Overall my 21st doesnt seem to by smooth sailing year for me. No gd news all, lost cousin, disappointed with some of my so called friend, end of relationship, health, lousy team in work and nv ending noise from my hse.

Nevertheless i know that there will be some one always be with me that is my wonderful twinnie, nanny and of cos best-ies friends. Thanks for all the support and caring.

I will pray hard for a better year!

Bye bye 21st welcome 22 =)

it's has been mth since my current update. well like many others in this world, many thing have happened in my life. Right after my 21st bday, grand uncle's farewell, malacca trip, 2010 count down with kakis, cousin's farewell, Start of sch, cny family gathering, v. day, law wed, Ipoh and Kl trip, universal studio, Awards and Promo, Changed of job for him, examination and of course many many other things i cant rmb quite clearly memorise are getting worse i need my organiser which i left it in my office.

My 21st bday, yup i learnt a lot from organising the party, i very grateful to those who help me up and ppl who turn out. i tot it was quite a messed, i think so till now. However my dad still being so supportive. He told me straight infront of me and said "i felt that it was a great party and a sucessful one". Oh well tt's the greatest thing i have heard for my 21st. =)

Grand uncle's r.i.p. everyone will miss you.

Malacca Trip, thanks to my cousin and her husband bringing my and my bro plus 2 of my little cousin ard and with her 2 little kid my nephew and niece. Play, shopping and eat. That was a great short getaway! =)

Count down at chalet was great too but didn enjoy much down with gastric cramp dun to the medicine im taking. Anyway a late Happy 2010 to everyone.

Till now it is still hard for me to believe that my cousin is gone forever, im still feeling that he is still with us, of course i hate him not to wake up in the 3 day of coma after the accident i hate him for not getting well for everyone of us worrying in the hospital. i hate him to leave his 2 old parents walking rest of their life themselves, i hate him for leaving us without saying goodbye. I hate the most will be hospital and the police there partly due to their neligence cause his death, i hate them and curse them! Im scare that one day i will forget his look his stubborness his voice. I really miss him. Thanks to his friends stay with him throughtout the 3 days of wake.

CNY gathering, look happy but down in heart everyone is sad still this a gathering for everyone of us to pull each other out especially him parents and gradn uncle. The sour-ish taste of feeling still come in occassionally.

V. Day, he bought me a camera reason 'i keep on using my hp to zi pai' =.= of course got scolded by me. well appreciate that. =)

Start of school! well life still have to move on. Busy coping with work and study. Doubt i manging it very well but a least a pass? Just finished my examination this week. So now im having 2 day of home break! sound so exciting but acutally nothing much. watching and plany computer for hours.

law wed! 2nd friend of mine wedding. x) lovely couple <3

Ipoh and Kl trip should be relaxing end up is tired!!! dragged by my friends to shop for hours everyday. and need to serve the mr. its tiring. still enjoy the experience. oh it my 1st overseas with my secondary sch friend. thanks my cousin for the hotel too.

Universal Studio. disappointed that the 2 coasta was shut down and dun have the time to finished all the rides. nevertheless ira and i still enjoyed it. thumb up!

A&P yup im offically Asst. youth official. but will still lie low or mia. i dun hav time seriously.

Congrat for him to step into another level of challenge hope everything will turn out fine. knowing that he is trying very hard to adapt into that new working place i felt happy yet worried. Hope this will be a better route for him. =)

Exam! finally finished. this conclude that i have finished a sem out of five. jiayou!

Life i really very short to finish everthing in this world so priortise it.

i found a blog of motivation for everyone to read.

'Self improvement and success go hand in hand.'
How do you know if a person is willing to achieve self-improvement? This is a question no definite answer. It will depend on the individual. Many people have goals, dreams and ambitions, but do not know how you get to go.

You can about what would have thought himself and the improvement of their ideal life, but have no idea how to even begin to make plans and take the necessary steps to realize them. Some people have a vague idea of how to go about herself improvement. These are those who believe that if they only had a job or had improved, or the love of her life, or whatever, now would be wonderful and fulfilled all they were happy.

They feel that their happiness or lack of happiness on external factors and their thoughts and actions will be decided, are of minor importance. Some believe that if only they had more money, what they want and will be improved on their way to independence. You may have spent very little time to think about what they really want out of life, and do not really believe that all they can do to create their fuzzy version of utopia anyway, apart from my more lottery tickets. Other people do not know what they want from their lives and may even have little idea what really makes them happy. They seem to just drift from day to day, from week to week, month by month and year to year, and not much more than just get by.

Perhaps they have seemingly secure jobs and earn enough to lead a relatively comfortable life. They seem happy and have no great ambition to achieve something in their lives than they currently have. Understood the importance of self-improvement? The reality is that throughout our lives we are all constantly growing and evolving. Circumstances make us grow and evolve, even if we do not make the conscious decision to do so.

Up to a certain age, we learn through formal education, and we continue to learn about our experiences for the rest of our lives. We need to learn and grow to deal with everything that life throws our focus. We all have to go through self improvement. Modern life moves at a dramatically faster than ever before in history. For all who are in the modern society are more opportunities to do to everything you do with your life than ever before. But there is more competition than ever, and ever-changing technology means that there are really few, if any 'jobs for life "anymore. It is now normal to change not only their jobs quite often throughout our working lives, but even completely change careers and industries.

Since the workplace is so competitive, people who are ambitious and hungry for success know they need to learn new skills and knowledge to keep in front of the pack. To achieve this, self improvement is needed. These are the people that most likely will stick to their jobs or to advance in their chosen field, or will be easy to employability in different organizations or industries.

A commitment to self improvement and personal growth well be the deciding factor, as will emerge in the future.

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