todae g0t p0p wif all uniform group member.... seeing all my buddy my friends all go up the stage to get certificate then mi still sitting down there onli hav the chance to lo0k onli... haiz... sianz... tis yrs most of my fRiends will g0 le... how i wish mi t00... keep tinking y i didn study in prI 6 to get better results in PSLE then get into eXp... haiz.... y tt time dunno how to tink... anyway... n0w noe how to tink oso no use le... past is past le.. .haiz... how i wish tis yrs the time can be slower then nXt yrS fast... jus hav tt feeling t0 geT out of tis sCh as fast aS possiBle... haiz... how i WIsH...sAd sad... todae wen tell mi tt i should n0t be angry to tt pers0n le... but then dunno larh... bein hurt need time recover SO i now dun wish to talk to tt pers0n... n0t dun wan maKe friend wif tt pers0n.. jus duno Y... haiz... dun0 larh... haiz fanz... y alway all tis idi0t tingz happened on n in my life? dunno... maybe im a unluckly gAl ba...-.-
 
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37 dAyz to 'N' le.. haben study yet... dunno how to start and start at when... ha... so until now haven study yeT... seein all tis topic go f0r exaM make mi feel sick.... sianz... hmmmz need memoriSe phy and mAths formula.... pOa format... s.s N hiSt oso need memorise... fnN n chem need understanding... chinese need to learn how rite word from seC 1 to 4... sianz...haiZ... how i wish im still seC 3... rmb tt time is my m0st haPPi time in my seC sCh lifE.... haiZ...

 

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todae early early cum home le c0s my friends dun wanna stay in sCh.... sianz cum home so early.... when even i step to tis home i w0nt haV tt m00d to study le.... siCk.... hmmmz todAe bl0ck tEst cheM & mAths... both paPer okok to mi laRh.... got larh do the math like gong gong lidat some qns like clot my mind lidat cannot tink so all... then the chem mCq quite easY onli secti0n C dun reali noE how do onli....hmmm tink tt all... noting special happen t0dae.... hmmmz... ar... g0t.... tt bastard.... collect his paper like bu shaung lidat... u tink i wanna collect de mehz.... is tt teacher wanna mi de h0r... wu liao... wat a betaryer... a another oso... trouble creator.... like to create problem between other ppl... then still cum so close to us... u hai wo hai bu gou ma... i tell u I hate u cuming wif us... !!! hmmmz... tt mAttErz still on my mind larh... cant forgEt watever happen... how lehz... how can i forget all tis... haiZ...oso tink wat he tinkinG n0w t0waRd mi... n0w no m00d stuDy at all... sIanz..

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t0dae dUn hav the m00d to studY at all... stay baCk in sch wiF my juniors and help they wif the ndp com.... haiz... todaE see hIm like c noting lidat... to mi i n0w still dun wish to tok to hIm and dun wish to c him.... dunn0 wat he tinking n0w... maybe the same as mi avoid each other... maNi ppl tells mi that tis friendship can call off already c0s for all tis reas0ns haPPened tis fEw daYz... but then i dun0 lehz... maybE tis need time f0r mi to f0rgEt and baCk to mYself aGain... sianz tml test chem and math p1... haven start study... dun feel like study... no m00d at all... haiz ... dunn0 lehz... haiz.. todaE de s.s papEr so difficult... haiz dunno will pass anot same for the EL paper... ha.. todae the eL papeR happen to hav n0 passage attach wIf the papEr one s0 tis problem delate our time 1/2hr... sianZ
 
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ehZ.. duno lehz... everyting seem to happen s0 n t0o fasT... at one moment u be accuse... another moment is ur friend create all nonsenes.. another moment ur 3 n 1/2 yrs cl0se friend dun reali believe u.... another moment ur attiude in claSs becum s0 bad... haiz... al0t al0tZ... jus cant mention finish.... haiz.... dun0 wat should and can i d0... tml bl0ck tesT le... although i noe i need to concentrate on my w0rk now however all tis tinGz jus g0t into my mind even i didn tink of it.... wAt can i say nE??? oNce theRe is a dEEp cut in ur heart and it will recover within s0me time... but theN... howeVer there will be a ScaR remain at theRe foreVer and eVer... haiz... tis pRobleM realli hurt mi al0tz... i dun reali wish to tot of it agaIn... haiz... baCk t0 the paSt jus feel tt tis is nV happen dE... eVen in the paSt we aRe veri closE, friendly or hav a happi past bef0re.. there will onli haV slim chances to be the saMe as past again... c0s i dun wish the injured area to becum deepeR N woRse.... haiz....
...Gd luck 4 the cumIng bL0ck tEst...

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saD larh todae... after seeing the friendster.... dunno larh.... haiz... speechlee... u all believe mi then gd lor if u all dun believe i oso hav noting to say... is ur choice... haiz....
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mAybe todAe is the eNd 0f our friendsHip oso... c0s u R to0 selfish... and u hurt mi too much...
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thought todAe can like normAl day... tIll they cum and lo0k for mi spoilt my daY... haiz how to say lehz... i reali didn say though words lorhz... u all got withness so... prove lehz... i can oso say u all at my back tok bad about mi wat.... i swear le i didn say it bef0re but u all dun believe my swearin then u all wan waT wan mi to accept tis accuss for u all ar... then u all believe ar... im speechless... if u all dun believe mi i oso cant help... c0s tt is ur friends wAt.... u all still dun believe i hav noting to sAy... and st0p accuing 0k... say like im veri big mouth lidat tok abt ppl biZ.... im not tt fRee.... f0r the laSt tiMe i SWEAR i didn say it bef0re... if not i tml been kill by the cAr when crossing the r0ad....
 
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todae noting special... as usual go class in the mornin cum back home at aftern00n... then eat eat eat play play play chat chat chat watch watch watch sing sing sing de until n0w... haha... sianz... wat he doin now lehz.. hmmz... maybe is tink of other galz ba... hmmmz... today dunno de... two of my friends break wif their stead... hmmm.... sianz lehz.... haiz.... still didn do fnN and copy ss... all tml pass up.... bored... dun feel like doin hw... jus feel like slacking... haha.. lala...
 
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so happi... father todae brought mi a new HP.. haha.... so great...heez.. 6610i.. but then i oso quite stress... the more he treat mi gd the more i felt bein stress.... feel so bad let him down... as he alway wan mi to get gd results and i alway didn get gd result.... haiz... block test cuming... tried my best to study le.... cannot play so much le.... haiz... si jp...i say le no confident still wan mi to msg him.. idiot... nvm my mood now quite gd... haha yuan liang u wahahaha... lala....
 
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t0dae rC... c she n him veri cl0se.. haiz... then whole rc time is doin f00tDrill... then after rc, mi, ssk, jy, yolane, wy, js, km, sy, jh g0 SP to eat lunch... loNg j0hn sliVer... then we start to play cards to noe about ur loVe... haiz actually ncOs started tis long ago since junE camP... but then todae dunno y start play aGain then help juniors to count (in chinese) haiz.. but then mi help mi count so mani times le always the same cards one... alway the king and queen got a gAl betweeN them de... althought the heart is together... haiz ssk de oso... more is mi and him one got somehow connected together... aiYo... haiz dunno larh... todae heard tt he got ppl he like already.... dunNo is hu... haiz... then go tis fashion walk walk tis wk g0t no nice clothes to buy... hmmmz.... abit trust the cards larh... cos all those ppl count for mi one is the same... haiz... maybe we wont be able to be together... faTe.... haiz...
 
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fEEl so sAd.. todaE... feel tt there is no frIends arouNd mi... haiz... watt am i doin all tis yrZ... put in so mani time effort and hard worK turn out like noting lidAt... he tis bitch l0rhz... dun hav the rite to be guY... er xin de na ren... sUx... wanNa shoot shoot directly larh... no need pull other ppl down wan... better tml fall in drain or wat ever arH... bastard.....haiz... s0 mani yRs de friends le...even can say is close and go0d friends... y alway n0t better then those normal or not even friends de friends ne... haiz... soBz... sEem like mi hav n0 true friends tt can reliable one... all g0t any problem all run away.. got credit all cum and take away from mi... haiz.. noting t0 saY... feel veri tired tis feW daY.... study stress... parents stress... friends unahppiness... cca problem... interner conflict.... and hIm.... feel veri veri tired.... all tis yrs felt tt i nv hav a gd and long rest.... wish tt i can finish tis all problemZ s00n... dun type le... the more i type tHe mo0re i feel like cRy aGain... haz...
 
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idi0t... haiz todae do watever ting all not man yi by myself... haiz... today 'n' f&n practical haiz... food until like shit lidat... lol... not tt bad at least can eat.. but then not u to my standed plus tt i oso done lotz of mistakez.... haiz... recently chem class test paper oso failed... poa oso dunno h0w do... phy to0... die larh... block teSt cUming tis eNd of month... h0w stUdy.... haiz.... li bu zhu xin de feel... sIanz...

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todae ne... slP... =P.. haha jus dun0 wat to do... dun feel happi oso... haha then kb wif our chinese teacher got a short funNy conversati0n... laugh for a while then dun hav le... class class class... then after sch duno y some junior meet wif us giv us the camp report then start to tok tok tok le... haha... then vien and hui ming got f&n until 5sth so jy dun wan wait wan go home so we all oso go lorh.. then mi weiyi junhao junsheng go kallang mAc tok tok tok again... lolx... so long didn tok so much le... dun feel so stress now after doin my own self study hw and sch stress... haha... now feel beeter le.. thanZ to them... =) ... however wat reali in my mind haven solve yet... duno lehz.. if reali she is lidat de friendz.. then maybe i wont friend wif her le... heez... dun tok tt le... haha lalala~....

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todae ne... g0t sch ann paR.... then march here there everywhere then scold here n scold there oso every where... cant they tink for themselve?.. haiz... todae ne... after rc go mac... wanna buy the dog but no stock le... idiot de... aRhh!!! week 2 de so cute how can no stock... haiz if i go wif jy they all go another maC maybe still hav stock... haiz... so sad... they said mi is jealous of gal so close to him actully abit onli larh and is reali no topic to say and the topic they say i dun feel interesting so dun tok l0rh... n plus exam cuming again... haiz.. actually he can choose who he wanna be wif lor... jealous oso not use... ai qin cannot use force one wat... mi onli will disappointed f0r a while onli wat i tink larh... ha|z dunno larh... dun0 how to face him... ha|z... so mani gal de tiao jian better then mi de oso like him... so he hav the rite to choose l0rh... haiz reali wish to noe who he like now... if not mi at least i can stop loving him n wish him all the best wat... haiz...

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back again... todae wake up to early then when back slp again the 2nd time up at already 5.50am le... so ruSh l0rh.. lolx tt wat i did most of the morning... haha...every time nearly late f0r sch oNe haha.. sianz... to chinese period got SPELLING dunno y sec 4 le tt tupid teacher still wanna us to have speeling.. then mos ppl didn learn ma then copy here and there... then she cant control us at all... haha make until she damn angry man.. haha until she shuo bu liao go out of the class...then mS ne0 cum in and scold scold scold haha scold until so ke ai but not ppl ai... so funni.. mi cant stop laughin haha... haiz... then after tt and tis and tt veri soon de oral time cuming... haiz.. dun feel i did well in oral... i was so nervous... i dun hav any idea abt the pic and conversation at all ... haiz.. if i cann0t make it to sec 5 then how... haiz... EL arH!!!... jus tink of tis make mi fanz... haiz.. then after oral g0t rc trainin... no matter how i teach they still lidat... haiz toking abt ccA dunn0 nxt yr exP 4 n na 5 pop le they how aR... haiz... s0 mani tingz faning mi... dunno wat i tink... haiz and him... look like he like other ppl le... s0 close to her... haiz.. dunno maybe is wat i tink onli... haiz... STUDYYYYYY!!!! aRHhhhh!!!!!!! hope time pass will make mi happi agaiN... haiz

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haiz... tired and sad... dunn0 wat i tinkin... still g0t so many tingz nEed to settle... jus like cant finish de woRk waitn f0r mi... haiz... tml oRal el 'n' so scare i will fail el and fail 'N' then how ... haiz the most unconfident subjects is english le... hope tml noting goes wronG... aLL the BeSt to mI... he todae didn cUm to sCh.. dun0 wat happEn... dunno wanna ask an0t... ask le later he say mi kp0 if dun hav ask mi feel uneasy... haiz... jus wan to study and forget him... hope tis will woRk...

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haiZ.. c0rrect nV be mi... fault alwaYz i create.... haiz... dunno wat i'm tinkin tis few day... jus feel veri tired.... there will nV be miracle between uS... friend always told mi noT to tink so much and there will be miracle happen and surely there will be reward but there is different happenin in oUr life... n0t always is the saMe n happieNing like other ppl do... haiz n0w jus wanna t0 start studyinG dun feel like tinking other pr0blemz... then after all the examination jus wanna a g00d rest dun ask mi any other questioN le... haiz... hope to be fine tis few dayz....

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