Sunday, January 30, 2005 @ 10:21:00 PM 
1st month 0f 2005 ending soon.... ya... 1st month got lot of tink to plan to do to learn... until i cant tahan some time... from the opening hse to schooling to learn new ting to trainin to talent time to footdrill com to sec 1 to korean to talent time final... ya final... tink tis will oso be the final i will put total effort in rc le.. cus i reali tire... put in so much effort so... didn regonise by hq so those juniors... didn get 1st 3 in the final.. dun mind... but i was total shocked... no one is sad from their expression... i dunno wat they r tinkin but they reali hurt mi... cus i can say tt i put 99% of my effort down but it is wasted..haiz... haiz... i feel so alone... todae leh... recieve a call from win ton... tell mi tml got chinese new year audition... pls last mins again... dun tink hav the feeling of doin tis ting again... ya did call st n kb about tis... st wan kb wan wan mi to play scissor paper stone to deicide wanna anot... i win.. but still say tml then settle ba... haiz... CA1 oso cuming soon... haven study yet... haiz... mus study le... haiz... feel tt my life is a failure... everyting in my whole life is empty......................................................................................................................................
Monday, January 24, 2005 @ 10:09:00 PM
here... todae quite a busy day ar... should be tis few weeks is veri veri busy... i reali dun hav much tie to do other ting... some more fnn hw i didn totally oso tml go phy test didn even look at the notes before... haiz... stress... tml still need to rush to buy the dance asscessory... oso korean ting... planning, campfire, talking, talent time, FD com... reali wanna make mi mad liao0... haiz... dunno... dis few day feel abit depress... dun lyk to tok so mus... mind alway tink lotz of ting... non-stop until i headaches.. haiz... maybe is abt last few wk wat i tink or maybe not... i can abmit my mood i not tt gd... i oso in a maze n im lost... i quite confuse wif all the ting handed to mi... i reali reali dunno wat to do... haiz... sobx.. maybe maybe if tt ting i reali can forget... maybe i wont feel so bad lyk tis few day how i pass my weekz... haiz... quite speechless... dunno how i can trust on... dunno who to look for.. every one seem to hav their own ting to settle... dun wanna distrub them... haiz... if there is noting happen before... i wont lidat for sure... but wat can i do.. i cant replay every ting.. i cant do anyting to replace.. best if i would forget... hope i can get out of tis sch as soon as possible... here onli make mi feel of sadness.... haiz... turning crazy... suffer form depression...
*depressi0n*
Thursday, January 20, 2005 @ 5:35:00 PM
tml holiday... haha but still go out... do rc ting then go out wif vien... todae noting happen.... head veri pain... wat a bad headaches... long time didn happen le... slply... .tis few day slp too late... ya oso set liao... i my friends goin facial nxt nxt wed.. haha... haiz........ change the word on the tag board too... REFLECTION... who reali did go to mirror ask themself did they do wrong anyting or bad.... so i felt tt the meaning in the sentences is veri meaningful... oso haiz... sad... sobx... help... i felt lyk i alway didn happi before since............ haiz... dun wat i tinking oso..........
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Wednesday, January 19, 2005 @ 8:31:00 PM
CLASS: the class is oso sianz.. haha... can eat in class... secretly haha.. hmmm class is still the same... no new ting happeN..
Teacher: i hate tis yr de cl n chem teachers.... they so idiot... cl tink we are 3 yrs kid are teach us around tis age.. cl dun listen oso can.. todae say mi... if u dun rub the book u next lesson can dun cum into my class... pls lorh.. i can do it without a cl teacher... but if i say okie lorh sure kana dc de lorh... pls lar.. teacher sure win de lorh in sch how dunno tis rule in MJR... chem hmmm... i okie larh.. jus feel veri sianz in her class.. but i every time slp in her class... i every time kanna caught... so mani ppl dun catch catch mi for?
Friendz: sianz... she every time lidat... i ceri giv way to her le lorh... dunno wat she tink... she tink she veri nice gal ar... after her bf ditch her go stead wif another gal... she still say to everyone she can still be her friend until so hao... or u wanna let the gal feel guitly? u most time onli tink of urself, dun noe i giv way to u until i veri sick of it... call u to wait for a while oso cannot.. u not happi u got ur bf... bf got problem got friend... i jus wanna to go walk walk tok tok to him to say xin shi onli... but u dun wanna wait mi for calling him... u may be rushing but can't u giv out few mins? haiz... dunno wat to say u... wat can i dun... u r still my best friendz...
CCA: haiz... fd... oso dance... they alway seem lyk veri tire to the time went dancin ask them wat is their feeling they jus say ok ok... but say real it go any comment jus say... oso.. rc is veri luan too until now.. all got ap... onli noe how complain to big one... but did u all put ur feeling to our shoes...u all alway tink tt way... did u all respect us.. haiz.. u all jus tink of urself... speechless... back to dance... to mi they still dunno how to tink... dun say too much to them... they will feel i naggi one of sure... i oso dun lyk ppl alway tok tok tok to my ear wat... but reali final is cuming... they still dun hav sense of urgentc... haiz... reali... dun waste my effort n u all de too.. the dance is still so messes... haiz... dun can say wat... hope u all see tis... then tink urself...haiz reali...
*^haiZ^*
Monday, January 17, 2005 @ 5:23:00 PM
baCk home... todae so tire... ytd dance until so tire then oso didn slp tt earlier when back home... so todae at class ro0m my eyez are lidat.... O.o... wanna close then cannot close de... haha... then so happi after sch... todae noting do too... so wanna cum back home faster... but friend hungry... then pei her to go central eat... then walk walk home... then watch watch tv le then online... todae so bored.... later haha... feel lyk playing sims 2 ... but i dun hav... but hav one hee hee.. wanna install play play then del... as my father dun allow us to play game so cannot install game in com.... onli my bro laptop... but i lag lyk siao... haha... sianz... later online enough le... wanna go study history n el le... tml test lehz sianz... todae get our common test date le... so earlier before chinese new year start liao... haiz... slpZzZ..
*orhX orhX*
Saturday, January 15, 2005 @ 11:12:00 AM
haiz... so sianz... jus wake up... recently de sec 5 reali veri stress... dunno how to do almost all sub... some is no mood at all... haiz.... fd com cuming.... onli one sec 5 in.... so weird.... ok dun tok much abt tis.... todae should go to one of my friends house de but wake up late le... then forget it.... tis few day i oso dunno wat the class doin.... no mood at all....
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Monday, January 10, 2005 @ 8:51:00 PM
haha... sO happi... haha... i cHoreoGraPh de chinses dance get into final le.... haha... tot i am wasting my time to plan the dance as tt audition they are not in the better condition... haha... noW confirm in le.. i sO happi until i wanna turn siao liao... haha... I FEEL GD DA DU DA DU DA I FEEL GD.. haha wahahahaha..... lalalala~~~~~~
*^haPPI^* =D
Sunday, January 09, 2005 @ 9:47:00 PM
haiZ... i'm lost... who can heLp mi led mi ouT for the waY? nan le... haiz... dun tink i can meet tis person... haiz.... stResS... Y.... haiz... soBx... talent time finalli finish... can say finish one big problem... however problem after problem... lyk last time i did say de... problem will nv finish... haiz... i try did convine myself tt veri problemz cum n solve can make mi a more understanding, better, paitent, happi, relieve, stronger, determine... haiz... but it doesn't reali works on mi... i alwayz will feel sTrEsS... tinGz on my head preSs my head so hard until i can ta han... i reali dunno wat the next step i will take....
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Thursday, January 06, 2005 @ 9:18:00 PM
todae so sianz... i wanna kill people le... todae so luan... idiot de irrespoisble GUY n juniors.... dun u all tink the time for talant time is runnig out... u tink veri time is us help u all do the road ar... cant u all tink... dunno y recently guy n lower sec wont tink onE!!!! suX.... the sch oso so stress... y alway all tis ting cum to mi in one whole bunch... arGGGGGGGGGGG..... haiz.. sobx... hu can help mi... haiz...
* ='( *
Tuesday, January 04, 2005 @ 11:22:00 PM
todae is the 2nd day of the schoolinG day... tis morning scare mi tot tt i will be late... then 7 sth still cant get a cab yet plus after gotten a cab then a the way meet red light.... haha.. luckly... after haig rd all the traffic light turn green.... haha...then reached the sch earlier then i tot... todae oso got the sec 1 orientation for cca... tis yr i can give 5/10 marks ba... cos tis yr is the 1st yr set up during schooling time... so i can said it not enough time for us the prepared.... cuming talent time haven setted yet... dunno how... for schooling... actually the 1st day of sching i can feel abit stress le... cos all the teachers stress to us wat should we achieve stress on the marks... aiyo.. now i still cant find my chem textbook... sobx sobx.... ='( .. haiz.... dunno tis yr how to take test wif my standard... todae oso hav a tot of a qns... time passes fast... oso my feeling towards him goes fade n more fade...dunno is the schooling stress let mi hav tis feeling or i reali can forget him... it seem tt i dun reali bother him much le... oso tink less abt him n his ting le.... is tis a good symptom or bad.... or normal.... haiz.. i oso dunno... but sure tis year i will put my study as priority... then others tingz... not like last years le... i dun wish to hav regret being getting poor resultz... i now can onli say jia you...
*trieD*
Saturday, January 01, 2005 @ 11:55:00 PM
HaPPI 2005 NeW yEar!!... more 5 minz is 2nd of jan....time flow veri fast... 2004 finally over le... ytd i went out wif jy st kb ssk to rc then eat... then meet vien then bye to ssk.. then we 4 go to parkway gaint buy lot of tibitz... haha... then we go east coast pitch tent... haha... then count down.. then km maggie cum meet us... the play eat slp.. haha... tis day consider happi larh... better then stay at home dun noting rite... then tis morning unpitch tent le mi vien kb n jy go jy de hse watch VCD.. haha.. then we go home le abt 4 lidat... then i rush back to home then take a shower then unpack n pack bag then go dance le... funni hor 1st of JAN oso got dance haha... so tired sia... but can tahan.. until now... haha... tml go dance again...
WISH...
May my family n friendz n myself staY happi n healthY... n pass mi 0 level well... n cut down on regret... n find tinGz i wanna finD long aGo.... hahaz...
*^SmilEz FoReVeR^*
