Fine i can’t slp me after back from DB camp and slept for 16 hrs.

Watched movies since I woke up till just now…

Thinking lots of random stuff…

I do not if it good or bad if it right or wrong…

But I will continue to walk as long as Im alive…

The more I know him, the more it hurts me.

Back from Bintan!

3 weeks past so fast! Now end of my examination and start of my holiday... not excited at all... What can I do in one month? Too short for me to do anything, in addition, I will be going DB camp tomorrow till Wed and Scout Campfire Leader from Sat to Mon. Left out the Primer Chill out Chalet which stuck in between of this 2 camps. Continuously, my others weekend will be burn too by all these, UG conference, course, shape run, dance, OA modular workshop, training, etc.

Examination Period
Was a hectic one... 7 papers in total... quite worried about my grades though I feel that I have tried my best, especially my MBW which I have been late for 45 minutes because I overslept -.- my bad I cannot blame anyone but myself. CRS the most problematic modular! The lecturer actually gave us the wrong examination paper to do and did not apologise to us but blame us from not telling her! Who the hell will know we got the wrong paper especially in examination? She wanted us to retake and threaten us that if we didn’t retake the paper she will give us zero for our paper however she gave up as none of us are willing to retake the paper and she needs to submit the scores to her department. Not that we are rebellious but she want us to take the paper at 8am that is so early! Moreover, we are having Account and Finance that afternoon, by writing an argumentative essay at early morning and have Acc & Fin at afternoon will definitely strain us out! As for others, I keep doubting myself will I score or at least get B+? I studied for all the papers but the lack of assurance from me really makes myself worry!

Something happened during one of the paper and she really makes my very worried about her.

Praying hard that everything will be fine...

Fireworks Outing (fri)
Outing that was planned by the most rare planner daph and her friends’ Xl. LOL... New York for our dinner and had fun making our candy floss! SO SWEET! Went to bridge, that is in front of the Fulleton hotel. (Shear bridge? whatever it’s name) Damn crowded and worse the firework starts 15 mins behind the actual time! Nevertheless, everyone enjoyed watching the fireworks! Went raffles to slack a while, then to supper for them, I went home. Thx for them to make this planning so successfully... lol

FAC
Didn’t help out but went there to have a looked. Missed the breakfast with Kenny... so sorry! Study at there too. Thx for the jacket from Wilson if not I think I will be froze to death that day. Heard speechless news that makes me felt helpless... Dance after having dinner with them.

Bintan trip
The Strategic review was a great exposure for me. Likes the games we played at the 1st day morning. The foods there are quite nice. Met my primary school HIPS’s link teacher but she do not recongise me anymore, expected as we didn’t see each others for about 7 years. The KTV there was pathetic! Missed the morning exercise and was guilty about it as I ate lots of food therefore I went for a run after reached home. The trip was totally not enough OTOT for us, we cannot play and shop much! I still managed to buy something =)

Went for a walk all by myself while thinking of some problem appears in my life and I have concluded some of them!

If there are total of 10 points for this trip I will give 7 points.

Decided not to del. the pervious post I typed I will delete it as it sounds pathetic. Because this is what I really thinks nowadays.

That is all for today. Later I still have job interview at 11am and now is 2.18am omg! After that will be DB camp... Cya at wed! Hopefully, I am not dead by then.

Wish me good luck! x)

List out the top 5 birthday present that you wish for:
1. pass my course with good results
2. live happily ever after
3. lesser stuff to do
4. the presence of all my friends
5. be lucky

Answer the following questions:

1.(the person who tag you is ...)
Joyce Tan the nonsense one....

2.(your relationship with him/her is ...)
one of my clique in poly.

3.(your 5 impressions of him/her ..)
outgoing, very sociable, strict, on and playful.

4.(the most memorable thing he/she had done for you)
Organising Kbox? LOL

5.(the most memorable words he/she had said to you)
????????? will ans once i know it.

6.(if he/she becomes your lover, you will..)
jump down from a high rise building

7.(if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be)
im dead so wont be answering...

8.(if he/she becomes your enemy, you will...)
ignore her

9. (if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be ...)
tutorial? project? presentation? report?

10.(the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is ...)
let go Kbox soon!

11.(your overall impression of him/her is ...)
nice friend to know ^^

12.(how you think people around you will feel about you?)
weird? i dont ask ppl abt this... ANYONE CAN HELP ME ANS?

13.(the character you love of yourself are ...)
ADORABLE x)

14.(on the contrary, the characters you hate of yourself are ...)
indecisive, introvert???

15.(the most ideal person you want to be is ...)
toddler

16.(for people that care and like you, say something to them ..)
Zillion of THX!

17.(pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wish to know how they feel about you)
1. shoot
2. vien
3. joyce
4. hui yee
5. juli
6. denise
7. brose
8. wilson
9. yh
10. TW

18.(Who is no.6 having relationship with?)
herself!

19.(Is no.9 a male or female?)
male

20.(If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?)
NO unless they are gays... =X

21.(How about no.8 and 5?)
VERY WRONG TOO...

22.(What is no.2 studying about?)
Nursing!

23.(When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?)
TODAY!

24.(What kind of music band does no.8 like?)
I don't know. english pop?

25.(Does no.1 has any siblings?)
Yes. 1 elder brother.

26.(Will you woo no.3?)
LOL so wrong too... woo her to be my friend?

27.(How about no.7?)
Worse! =X

28.(Is no.4 single?)
yesh! who wanna know her i can intro...

29.(What's the surname of no.5?)
dunno i dun rite primer mintues =X

30.(What's the hobby of no.4?)
arcade and K BOXing!

31.(Do no.5 and 9 get along well?)
maybe... but they dunno each other

32.(Where is no.2 studying at?)
NYP

33.(Talk something casually about no.1)
SHE'S MY NANNY! i luv her!

34.(Have you try developing feelings for no.8?)
=.= no

35.(Where does no.9 live at?)
Bedok.

36.(What color does no.4 like?)
dark colour?

37.(Are no.5 and 1 best friends?)
no they dont even know each other...

38.(Does no.7 likes no.2?)
Nope! 2 has already be taken...

39.(How do you get to know no.2?)
sec sch.. friend of friend...one of my ZPGY buddy! and my dar!

40.(Does no.1 have any pets?)
YES my nanny has a dog called BABY! sexy name x)

41.(Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?)
=X speechless

-END-

DONE!

Ok im bored

Left 2 more examination to go

Jia you!

im here blogging again.. my life is in a mess now or maybe can say that it has never be in order... perhaps i should go back to the old life i had, where studies, buddies (GPGY) and dance are impt to me and always be my top few priorities. But how can I do it? I no longer can sit down and study for one whole day (obviously, as im now blogging) and most of my GPGY buddies has already drifted quite a distance, now i no longer looking forward to dance. I MISS those SAT adventures, 5 jian ke dancing together and the interest of studying!
Argh…. Im stuck! Or rather sux because after living for 18 years in this world, I still do not know what I really wants in my life.

-.- sound so pathetic… I shall not go any further… back to study…. Will definitely edit or delete this post…

*joyce will do ur quiz soon k…

Can someone struggle this idiot? The slow, stupid and with low self esteem cannot even study. Noting goes into her brain up till now and tomorrow is the test. Though, she went to training but she skipped her dance lesson and did not go to the supper with her friends, planning to go home earlier to study. Now! She is using msn, email, blogger and friendster. OMG! Someone help her!

Fine! Back to normal post. Finally, my 2nd last events CAC end! At least, the last one is during end of year so I do not really think about it. Currently, left OA workshop and MOE which is during Sep or Oct, scout camp perhaps, Bin-tan strategic review during end of Aug, yup yup think that is all for RC this year. I am much more relax now.

Went back to DB training, could be quite boring sometimes as I am not really bond with the other girls. Due to the past few training and competition clashed with my previous RCY and Primers events. Cant help but to miss the trainings and go for the events. The training recently was tough and my stamina SUCK! I really need to do some personal training to catch up with them. I want to be a useful team mate, not a burden!

I am not elmo’s friend just sometime cant help but to start emo-ing. I know i cannot compare others with me because everyone has their own personality and they have difference ways of good. Sometime, I really very envy what others have and I don’t, not denying some jealousies in it. Understand that the world is unfair but cant stop the comparison. I admit that morning scene I saw, really hurts me deeply. Sometime I hate myself not being that good to let other people accept me easily. Fact is cruel and I need to face this personality and character of mine. And I accept it!

During the hectic period of mine with events, projects, reports, and presentation in one shot, I was glad that some of my friends up there supporting me and constantly checking me.

Some random msn chat!

((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
i teach u a way to release it
.daph. stresslevel: 89% T.T says:
?how?
((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
use ur hands, cover over ur nose n ur mouth
((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
then pump some air into ur mouth...till ur mouth is full of air..
((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
hold it for half an hour..if u r success, i dun think so u huv the time to care bout ur stress
((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
if not..how to stress while u rest in peace?
((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
hehe
.daph. stresslevel: 89% T.T says:
lol
((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
how r u?still fine anot?
((^A@rOn^)) When I will be juz like him?A millionaire..With the hands of my ownself.. says:
it seem u not really in a good mood..
.daph. stresslevel: 89% T.T says:
thx for the suggestion

By Aaron

Storm of chance approach, better adapt than to flee says:
dun jump down buliding k..
Storm of chance approach, better adapt than to flee says:
no matter how stress u r, rmb to stay alive
Storm of chance approach, better adapt than to flee says:
when i say alive, it does not mean breathing

By Paul

Many others more! BIG thx to them and SHOOT my nanny, not forgetting my RC friends and SP friends and my clique! THX ALOT! Muack!

Shall not post the events I have been to for the past few days as I haven upload the photos yet. Anyway tests and exams coming 2 weeks, unless I am busy, I wont be upload next post so soon.

Contract Procurement – 06/08 (Mon)
Construction Tech – 07/08 (Tues)
MBW (Architecture) – 08/08 (Wed)
Critical Reasoning Skills – 10/08 (Fri)
Property Maintenance Management – 16/08 (Thurs)
Finance and Account – 20/08 (Mon)
Oral – 22/08 (Wed)
Project Management 1 – 23/08 (Thurs)

I am going to be crazy again! GD LUCK TO ME! =