Think i have been too hard on myself the past few months that's why all these happen on me.

currently mugging for the coming papers dec 1-5 which clash with my bday.

my bday seem to be getting worse each year.

nvm it doesnt seem to be impt to anyone including me.

Officially pull out for the coming performance today. Was so relieved once i confirmed this. Thx to my dance mates helps me pursuing my dance teacher if not think i will suffer the most in the end. However, i have some how made up my mind whether to contd or not.

Working wise, get to know the staffs better. Turn over rate was high too so was quite demorlised when those ppl i enjoy working with leaving one by one.

Sch part sad to say that im still struggling. Nv feel comfortable in the option i choose till now. Exams are coming yet my mood is not there. Haiz really dunno wat to do after my graduation.

My doctor appt is coming, which is during my bday also. (that's why im complaining, this will be the worse bday ever in my entire life) having a mix feeling now. Firstly, was finally it comes and i will get to know what going on with my legs why do i feel so much pain on it but giving a second tot what if the results after examine was bad and i need to stop all my activities even work? how abt the side effect will it recover? haiz.

My email was flooded my VIP again. In charge of campfire, oa, mentoring and F&B, seem lyk ppl up there believe that i can multi task well. Will try my best. AOP for campfire was a blood vomitting session for me. Most worring part my dear Delta, attend their meet last fri was quite relieve seeing most of they are at the right track, trying my best to guide them when even i can. OH ya. LOL. they said that im fierce esp after my scolding during the campfire AOP. hello im so friendly. =X ok they a bunch of noisy and enthu kids =). BUT THE EMAIL WAS WAY TO MUCH!

I misses all those chill out session, gym, sauna, shopping, slacking times.

How i wish i can reverse the time back to those days. i dun mind using my bday wish if it really can happen.

Always feels so helpless. Does it mean im useless too.

Im still a cry baby afterall.

WHY!!!!

haiz...

why me...

always the more i wan to proof myself the more i injury myself in the end.

the world are so unfair.

ppl are saying it ok.. it normal. but not to me...

im jus 19 not even 20 though less than a mth i will be.

ARGH

i jus cant accept it.

haiz.

cant cant cant cant cant!

//.T

my blog seem to be dead...

nvm.. since im half dead too..

i hate hate hate making decision.

feels like running away from sch again

i so so dislike the new modules.

upcoming event...

Term test

DEC performance

VIP




someone kill me pls.